Questioning Maturity

As of today, there's no way 

Getting older gives no signs

Thinking deeper is not a choice 

However, things keep happening 

Phone keeps ringing

Messages keep coming in

Questions are unstoppable 

Notes kept being delivered 

Among the two, I don't win

They love the other one more

I'm invisible and unheard

I'm no important 

Less of them approach me unlike my partner

Facing those circumstances leaves me in pain

Feeling of uselessness keeps threatening 

Even being older doesn't help me be more patient 

Am I immature?

When am I getting more mature?

Is the ability to stay under control a sign of maturity?